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Chasing adventure & living mindfully while parenting through mental illness

Mama Instinct

There has been a lot of miscellaneous things going on lately. Life has been very routine, but scattered. We've had a lot of family time, a lot of preschool days and trips to the Cannery, and a lot a lot a lot of pool time. Breccan had become quite the fish, so that takes up a lot of our time. We have recently started sleep training Olin. I say sleep training with a grain of salt, because I don't have a great experience with sleep training Breccan. I don't know what kind of sleeper Olin is really, but there is no possible way he is worse than Breccan was.  I have limited expectations for his sleep. My only real goal is to get Olin to stop cosleeping and to sleep in 3 to 4 hour stretches. Cosleeping was the right choice for us so far. It enabled me to have the energy to be emotionally present for Breccan while we went through so many changes. But it is funny how mama instinct kicks in so much stronger the second time around. It is as though I woke up one morning, and my body just said "Time to push him to the next stage." My back, neck, and shoulders are aching. He's night-nursing less out of need and more out of habit (he's latching and unlatching a lot, which is a nightmare). And I'm longing for a little more consistency in the evenings. I am finding that mama instinct kicking in a lot more this time. He can eat this or that, what texture it should be, when to intervene in what he's doing, etc. I imagine this is why third kids feel so much easier. One of the ways that instinct has come, though, in my desire to NOT have a third kid! I can already feel a desire to be done with this baby stage. I love some things about it. But it is so hard. It requires constant attention. There is so much I still want to do with my life that will be easier to do with the kids out of the baby stage. Olin started walking (FINALLY) this week. That means that crawling is on its way out. It's just one way life will start getting easier for me. I won't be physically carrying him all the time. He can use the playground. Days without the stroller are just around the corner! 


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Parenting Through Mental Illness: Tina from Tina B's World

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